Sunday, January 31, 2010

im bleeding inside

sakit tahu
perasaannya
being betrayed


sakit!
sakit!
sakit!



sakit tahu tak???!


i remain silence doesnt mean i dun know
i fake my smile, doesnt mean im truly alright
i pretend not to care, doesnt mean i can afford to lose


im sorry, i dont bear a grudge







Tuesday, January 26, 2010

here comes a quote againnnnnnnnnnn

SILENCE IS EXPENSIVE

(OTH, season 1)




agree?disagree?justify.

Monday, January 25, 2010

if only my dream is coming true

semalam telah bermimpi lagi.tapi saya suka mimpi ini.rasa tidak mahu bangun dan biarkan mimpi buat selama-lamanya.


apakan daya,mimpi hanya mimpi.tp,ade aku pdulik???



Mahu mimpi lagiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~~~~

and the story went on and on...

ok let the pics narrate everything..ok bagi description sket2




intro2..hahaa




apabila terms stjrian saja yg tahu...



lwak susah terjemah kami, din buat2 paham





kami mule2..hihi










sumpah pecah perut gelak. PLUS smpai pegi2 toilet sume.hahahah

u guys had  made my day..really.sgt mahu kejadian ini berulang okayh!sgt rindu kalian! T____T



Sunday, January 24, 2010

i dun NEED to be anybody,honey

no comment. get to know the lyrics and u'll know what's exactly in my heart.






p/s- teringat eng class with ms jass.T___T

Saturday, January 23, 2010

toksahlaaaa berangan


"da pk nk kawen dah ke..haii...siang ikan pon tak lepas..cmneeela"


"eleyh,bgun tdo pun tghari!"




"isy, cmnela ko kat umah mk mtua nnti,masak nasik pun keras!"






waaahahaha!ni antara kata2 my family bile ade je yg tersebut sal kahwin (yg merujuk kat aku). hahahah..yes,sgt gile!

dats y bile dtg sini, ade mcm sedikit kesukaran. everything adelah DIY. hambek ko!

kesimpulannya fadhillahbakren,toksahla berangan nk kawen. hahahah~











Friday, January 22, 2010

mummy,y'all!

GERUN gila bambreng! i just woke up. tahu aku mimpi ape? i'm having a baby!yes,my own baby kat warwick ni ha.
gilos! pastu the problem is ketiadaan pendaftaran perkahwinan.dapat maksud itu?astaghfirullaaah..



but the funny part is.mimpi ini bersambung.haahahaaa..cuz i was awakened just now bcuz i heard some noise outside my room but continued sleeping afta dat.mata sangat berat okay.sumpah mase terjaga mmg cuak gila!pastu mimpi lagi.but this time, i was pregnant pulak!lagi gilo nak mmpus!kwan2 seperti sha and tetibe si joaanna woolley tutor kesayangan pun ade. part jo was die tetibe suh bangun time kelas die. ppuan sahaja yg kena bangun sbb nak cek perut.ape ke bangang mimpi ni. part sha (actually ade je member2 lain tp cm x ingt) was die dgn selamba kodok suh buat abortion.lagi bangang!


TAPI,dlm bnyk2 part,xde lak tnjuk sape bapaknya!sumpah bangang!




cuak gilos kot. mimpi mainan syaitan je.tp smpai skang aku trauma.





Ya Allah, jauhkanla aku dr perkara2 yg boleh membawa kpd zina..amin
















Thursday, January 21, 2010

saya ada Dia




saye rase mahu jerit kuat2
mahu luahkan semua
tp
tak mahu siapa-siapa dengar




saya rasa mahu nangis
mahu mengadu segalanya
tp
tak mahu menyusahkan sesiapa




saya rasa mahu beritahu
beritahu yang tersimpan
tp
takut membebankan




saya rasa mahu ada yang memahami
memahami akan segala segi
tp
takut tersalah erti


saya perlu berlagak kuat
walaupun rasa penat
saya harus pura2 tabah
walau hati menggelupur bernanah
saya mesti berlakon bertahan
walaupun memang tak boleh tahan




sebab saya tahu
siapa siapa pun
diam di mana pun
lari ke ceruk mana pun
pastinya
akan sampai suatu ketika
akan terjumpa
yg paling memahami
yg paling bisa memujuk
yg selalu akan mendengar
yg mampu segala-galanya.
DIA di atas sana.










p/s-rasa macam mahu bela kucing pula.


Wednesday, January 20, 2010

this is sooooo gonna be the reason


i prefer her acoustic version to Ke$HA's original. when it comes to song, i cud be the last to have a favour on any songs. sume org da laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaama duk dga and hapal whatsoeva, aku ni la yg baruuuuuu terhegeh2 nk carik..kahkahkah~


sebab?
i prefer to get the meaning dlu. kalo stakat dga2 gtu je, aku susah nk catch up lyrics. meaning apetah lagi kan?and nak tahu meaning,kene google lyrics sume2.satu hal!tu sbb lambat~hahah.tp aku salute kat member sorang ni.bukan stakat hapal lyric.pat2 rap laju gila babas tu buleyh tgkap.wow!mmg wow!

lagi satu,kalao music die catchy or kene dgn emosi on that particular moment.mungkin dan2 g carik terus lagu pakej lengkap with lyrics. spt yg ini la. aku x kenal sape la minah bernama kesha ni. credit tu minah di atas ni, sbb ko, aku TERminat lagu Tik Tok ni.first time doh aku tgk vid neh..hehe

and and and..this is soo gonna be the reason for me taking a guitar lesson. ok gelaklaaa..gelakla puas2!

y oh y??

kenape bercinta
kalau akhirnya
berdendam?



Tuesday, January 19, 2010

i wont ever regret. i wont back off! just so u know~

dalam hepi2, ade je waktu aku sedih, rase down. tak tipu. muka buat2 senyum menyeringai, hati berdarah2.

it's been a week since the spring term started and i feel that i've lost the momentum. not that i always have the enthusiasm, but u know, new year, new term, new resolution and all that. the spirit was there, earlier, but seems to fade away. and i dun really know whats the real reason for now.

lots of things to do. despite the struggle for my studies-yes, it's becoming tough, day after day, week after week, AND, i have OTHER responsibilities as well- javanese dance and zapin for Msian night and nasyid for NISE. It was not that burdening at first, but having known that the dates for the performances are quite close (28/2-msian nite, 20/2 NISE) mmg matilaa!! mane nk cari mase nk practise???

but i take that as a challenge. sape lagi kalau bukan diri sndiri yg nk cbr and bersaing dgn diri sdiri kan??ke ade je yg jenis bersaing ngan member,dengki mendengki sume tuh?cit podah itu perangai. tolak tepi!kalo sal ni, sungguh aku tak phm!hahah..mungkin entry kak chika (nurulism.com) ni bleyh bagi lebih kefahaman. =)  sekadar berkongsi. mmg takdela kan manusia nk dengki kat aku yg hina dina neh. hape ke pelik kalo ade. ko nk dgki kat ape?parut allergik aku ni ke?ke tulang temulang aku ni ha?


of whatever things i may encounter, whatever barriers that may inhibit any of my efforts, i know myself better than anyone does. just so u know, whatever happens, He is there, watching and listening to everything.

Monday, January 11, 2010

tamat.the end.sekian.jumpa lagi

sudah tidak ada apa2.
jgn soal apa2
memang dah tiada apa2
oh,xpernah ada apa2
wpun nmpak mcm pernah ada apa2..
skaranag mmg tidak ada apa2.
maka jangan tanya apa2.
sekian.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Ya Malik,jangan kau hilangkan agamaMu di wajahku...Nauzubillaaahi min zaalik

Subhanallah..sebenarnya bnyak betul perkara yang tersembunyi yang aku taktau...Credit to kwn aku sbb sudi share link ni kat kite semua warga muslim..Bacalah dgn mata hati...

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Thursday, January 7, 2010

my precious lil atiqa


hey cutey little princess,
i really miss u
cant wait for this july
ure so cuddly i wanna hold u for every hour and every minute i could
though it seems u might have been able to walk
by the time i reach home, 
i just dun care
i promise i'll do everything
just to show u how much i love and care for you
how adorable u are to us,
I'll kiss on the dimple on ur left cheek. yes,without 's' just like what i have too.(on my left cheek too, of course!) 
Nuratiqa Faiha Mohamad Hafiz,
Makcu loves u so much!


nenek said tiqa dah pandai merangkak satu rumah in fact goes under the sofa just to hide your body but not ur head. How cute you are!!!And ouh, crawls under the dining table and cabut bulu kaki ur abah while he's eating. hahaha! Cant wait to be home with u honey, and of course together with the rest of our family. T___T

Sunday, January 3, 2010

i know HE listens


“Jika seorang hamba mendekat kepada-Ku sejengkal, Aku akan mendekatinya sehasta; jika ia mendekati-Ku sehasta, aku akan mendekatinya sedepa; jika ia datang kepada-Ku dengan berjalan, Aku akan mendekatinya dengan berlari” - HadIS bUKhari